its been a few months since last i updated this blog....
a busy and sad times..... i was actually trying to "repair" my relationship with my wife.... i have no idea how it is going..but i'm preparing for the worst...... so far it has been a one way traffic
in the past months...4 neighbours passed away......most due to old age and health problems.... but somehow...it is straining to be part of a sad event....death is also part of life..... it is not supposed to be a sad event.....but...it is
i hope...i can get through everything smoothly......i just can't hold this any longer...i have to move on...
i want a divorce so that i could move on.... but...i can't give up to easily...i'm a man after all
